A former New York model spoke for the first time Thursday about being abused by Jeffrey Epstein — saying it “completely derailed” her life and left her suicidal.
“He took my spirit and he broke it,” the accuser, only using the name “Kiki,” told TV’s “Dr. Oz” of her abuse 15 years ago, calling it an “incredible trauma that totally altered my life.”
“It’s still trauma that affects me every single day of my life,” she said.
Kiki is one of two former hostesses who say they were recruited in 2004 while working at the now-shuttered Union Square hangout Coffee Shop and are now suing the money man’s estate.
She was 19 — but told she had to lie to Epstein that she was even younger, she claims.
Epstein then sexually abused her “for about 25 minutes” after paying her for a massage at his Manhattan mansion, she told the show, saying he then “got up and left as if nothing had happened.”
The shame and humiliation sparked a nervous breakdown, she said, telling Dr. Mehmet Oz, “The impact was devastating.
“I didn’t want to leave my house. I couldn’t talk to people. I couldn’t sleep. I turned to substance abuse,” said the accuser, previously only known as Jane Doe 2 in her court filing.
“I had a lot of suicidal thoughts and went into a very manic depressive state.
“It completely derailed my life. He took that day — he took my spirit and he broke it. And it’s taken me a long time to get it back.”
She also took aim at alleged co-conspirators now at the heart of the ongoing investigation after Epstein’s August suicide in a Manhattan lockup.
“They know what they’ve done,” she told the show. “What amount of money was worth it for you to look the other way?”
Kiki, joined by her attorney Lisa Bloom, told the show that Coffee Shop had been a “hunting ground for recruiters” because most of the staff were models.
Her “young, beautiful” recruiter — who she guessed was at most in her early 20s — initially appeared to be “just another customer,” she said.
“She just stood in her tracks and she looked at me and she said, ‘Wow, you’re really beautiful,’” Kiki recalled, saying it seemed “kind of odd.”
“She started telling me about her client and who she worked for,” she said, referring to Epstein as “very generous, wealthy, and prominent.”
“He was very good to people. He was very generous. He’d like to help young girls with their careers,” she says she was told.
She was told “nothing bad would happen” and she just had to give him a simple massage — and that he “likes young pretty girls.”
“I thought, okay, well, this is New York. That’s not that unusual,” she recalled.
There was “a process of grooming” where the recruiter “wined and dined me,” she said.
“She said, ‘Just be sure, if he asked you how old you are, make sure you don’t say you’re older than 17 or 18.’ Even though I was only 19 at the time,” Kiki recalled.
She wiped away tears as she recalled finally going to Epstein’s Upper East Side mansion and being taken to a “dimly lit, small room with a massage table in the middle of it.”
“A few minutes later he walks in with a towel around his lower half and doesn’t really greet me,” she said.
“I proceed to give him a massage and as time went on he began to sexually abuse me. That went on for about 25 minutes and then he got up and left as if nothing had happened,” she said.
She felt “trapped” and could not leave because “this man’s presence was so intimidating,” she said.
“When you freeze, you don’t know how to process what’s going on right now, physically or mentally,” she said, adding that it felt like something “very routine” for Epstein.
“It was a well-oiled machine at that point,” she said, calling the experience “degrading,” “humiliating” and “shameful.”
“In your mind at the time to allow someone to violate you like that when in reality you didn’t have the power to say no. You didn’t have that power to fight,” she said.
The recruiter only contacted her one more time — saying Epstein “‘really liked you a lot — he’d like to see you again,’ ” she said.
“Honestly, I’m not sure that he had a conscience,” Kiki said. “In the short time that I was face to face with him, and then hearing about all the things that happened afterwards, I think that he didn’t think about other people. So, to him, it probably was a good time because it satisfied his impulses or his urges.
“However the other person or other victim was feeling, it didn’t matter because it was all about him. It satisfied what he needed, and that’s all that mattered. Everyone is disposable to him. Expendable,” she continued.
Kiki said she was inspired to finally speak out by “all the women who came before me.”
“Their strength and courage and bravery inspired me tremendously,” she told the show. “But I also felt this social and moral responsibility — as a woman and as a victim and now survivor — to do what they did for me and to sort of pay it forward. If there’s any way, even if I only touch one person or inspire one more person to come forward, whether it’s specifically with this case or they’re a victim of someone else, then I have fulfilled my obligation and have done the right thing.”
Her attorney, Bloom, said that Kiki had been “tricked into a commercial sex act” that was “like a casting-couch situation.”
She said another dozen victims are in talks to join her lawsuit that was filed in August in Manhattan federal court.
“He may have escaped it on the criminal side — he’s not going to escape it, in death, on the civil side,” Bloom told the show.